求这段话的英文翻译

Whatever can be found or not,I'm losing sleep anyway;Whatever can come back or not,I'm missing you somehow. Whether I ought to love or not,I finally did.Whether I ought to wait or not, I also did. Whether I ought to care or not,I also did.Whether I ought to give up or not, I'm determined to never give up . Whether you love me or not, answer is only in your heart. Forward or backward, only you can decide where you will be. Perhaps the ending already doomed.

“找的到的，找不到的，反正我失眠了。回的去的，回不去的，总之我想你了。爱与不爱，我都爱了。等与不等，我都等了。在与不在乎，我都已陆扒在乎了。放与不放弃，我都决早缓昌定不放弃了。你爱或已不爱，哪告只有你心里明白。向前或向后，只有你自己决定。也许结局早已注定。”
"Find, can't find, anyway, I had insomnia. Love and didn't love, I love the. Wait or not, I have been waiting for. And don't care, I have to care about. And don't give up, I have decided not to give up. You love or don't love, only you know. Forward or backward, only you decide. Perhaps the outcome already doomed."